So tonight on the #crazybloggers chat, the topic was ‘overwhelmed by blogging’. I have to admit, it was a truly great chat and it was nice to realise how many bloggers have the same thoughts as me! However, I thought that today I would share a very long awaited post, very very overdue. Better late than never right? So… Here’s why I got too overwhelmed with blogging… An apology and a little note note say you aren’t alone.
By no means is this a sad, or awful story, so please don’t think I’m attention seeking, or trying to get something out of this post. I just want to be honest about why I shut down my blog for a bit, in case it ever happens again.
So, I take you back, all the way to December 2013. Ages ago. I know. My blog was doing great, I had over 1000 followers on Twitter, Instagram and WordPress, I was being contacted by a few brands to try out their products, things were going pretty well. Except for me. I didn’t want to log on to my blog, I was too scared of what people would think. (and by people, I simply mean readers, none of my friends even knew I had Twitter, let alone a blog) I just couldn’t do it. I tried going on my Twitter and completely freaked out at the number of followers I had, I was so lucky to have quite a few. But I was feeling pretty emotional already, and the sudden realisation that I didn’t know any of my followers really got to me. A classic overthinking scenario. What if they went who they are? Why are they spamming me? I’m sure you can imagine. At this point I had completely freaked myself out. I really don’t know what happened in all honesty, I was in tears for days over nothing and everything about it. I was too overwhelmed.
So, the only thing I could think of, that would put my mind at ease, was to shit it all down. A year of hard work, gone. In December 2013, that was it, I was offline. And I didn’t look back, I kept myself busy and didn’t think about blogging much. I say I didn’t think about it. I did. I couldn’t bring myself to look at it though.
Then last Autumn, so five months ago now, I was really struggling to find anything interesting. I stopped the gym, and most things that I loved. But my mind wandered over to blogging and trying to remember the good, not the bad, I knew how much fun it had been, and slowly but surely the confidence came to repost, and join Twitter again.
A few months later, I’m retrying to blog, there’s days that it still scares me, but nothing as overwhelming as before. I’m so lucky the bloggin community have been so kind, so helpful. Now I’m back on track to getting my blog where I want it to be. I don’t have the brand contacts I did before, and no where near the same amount of Twitter followers, but I feel like my content and photography is slowly increasing, so with time, it’ll grow, so I’m not too worried. I love blogging and hopefully never quit
But we’ll see.